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I don't normally advertise anything on my blog but this is a little advertisement for my OWN book.

Ever since I was 16 I started writing poetry and that is exactly what is in this ebook. My poems this is the first volume that I will be releasing. All you have to do to read the content is buy it and dnowload it as it is an ebook.

Everything that I earn from any books I write and sell I am planning on saving the money for uni.

Bigger than dreams...

Everyone has dreams, hopes things they aspire to do, right? For me I would love to see my stories and poems in a shop for sale, not what most people would think about me, but that is my dream and to be honest no one will ever be able to take that dream away from me, and one day hopefully I will achieve that dream. Some people try and put down other people’s dreams, but why? Do you get a kick out of this; you can’t ever take someone else’s dream away from them because it’s something that they want more than anything else, but you can make them feel like what they want is stupid or silly and surely when you make someone feel like that then you’re making yourself feel pretty useless too, why would you ever want to make someone feel like what they want isn’t worth anything, the smallest of dreams is the biggest of dreams to someone.

I’m going to stop using people’s names in my blog, because it keeps getting me into trouble, maybe I’ll use nicknames or initials or just not use names at all... I don’t know I’ll decide when I need to mention someone.

I always seem to spend my weekends thinking things over, working out how I want things to go. Today wasn’t any different. I saw things differently today, and it really is time to just concentrate on me and things that I want and need to do. Some things that I have decided are going to be hard to actually do, but then there’s others that I will have to decide on soon...

I was looking through some old pictures today and it really does make you miss some things that you used to have, and some people that were in your life. There are times when you just have to move on whether it’s you or someone else getting hurt because it’s the best thing to do. Some decisions are really hard to make, but they have to be made.

I thought when you have everything you thought you wanted you were supposed to be happy, what happens when that something isn’t actually what you wanted? How do you deal with it then? Do you carry on how everything is and hope that it goes back to how you once felt or do you start making changes and sorting things out to how you want them to be?

In life there are some hard decisions and they will only ever get worse.

Everyone’s lives would be pretty boring if they didn’t try things that were thrown in their direction, I have and now I know doing this isn’t what I want right now, I thought once it was, but things have changed, and now I know that it isn’t what I thought it would be, and it isn’t what it was.

so much going on this year already

Right well, parents evening is coming up and there won’t be much else for the teachers to say other than, coursework needs to be done, well unless they say it in a more creative way then I don’t think there is anything else they can say anyways.

I was thinking about what is going to be happening in the year already:
1. College interview
2. Sit my GCSE exams
3. Prom
4. Leave school
5. Holiday in august 2 weeks
6. Start college
7. Louis’ 18th
8. My 17th
9. Learning to drive

And even then I’ve probably missed some of it out, I mean it’s really weird to think that I’ll be 17 this year.
I love Glee, slowly the TV people are getting towards a decent musical TV show.

I discovered that I have written 130 poems since last January, quit good really seeing as I don’t really do it all that often
I was quite proud of myself today, not only did my brother leave the Xbox alone long enough for me to use it but, I even managed to beat his score on need for speed, after I did it’s needless to say that I got kicked off of it, but I had a look and I’m still in front of him, hehe.

I came across that song by chance, and its actually quite a good song, and the lyrics are really true.
Anyways I’m off

Laterz xoxo

Ps.

I just love that song

well i fail at life

got my final mock results apart from english coz half the teachers are ill :@

maths - c
biology - e
chemistry - d
physics - d
media - b
graphics - b
textiles - b

but the grades that are gonna get sent off with my college application are

maths - b
biology - c
chemistry - b
physics - b
ict btec - destinction
media - a
graphics - a
textiles - a

i dunno why theres different for our college applications but oh well there better grades so i'm not complaining... just got to get them now

a whole day of english tomorrow :( all in aid of a poetry essay, well i get to spend the day wiv hayley, molly, nikki, haids and mich :) so it will be a good day hopefully :)

lol graphics and my chocolate bar from max :) didnt actually think i would get one :)

ict :D

mediaaa betherz :P

i love him :) and i realli cant wait to see him :)<3

laterz x
love you babyy xxxx

check it out ;)

good day :)

had a good day today all the christmas decorations are up, my families presents are wrapped :)

wrote some more poems today :) and managed to post them (on the link)

really looking forward to christmas now :D

hmm not much else has happened really...

laterz x
love you baby xxx

Just for him :)

i havent wirtten anything the last couple of days :( college application, revision and the amazing boyfriend of mine take up alot of my time :)

well got a few more poems written in the time spare that i have, which is getting rare at the moment, maybe one day i'll get published :)

i actually think if i see another revision book/ guide/ notes i may scream gaah i really dont like exams but now i have to do well coz i really want to go to college now and if i get good results in these mocks then i will have a chance at getting to do the courses i want to do

decided what i'm getting him for christmas :) i really hope he likes it though :/

once this week is over i'll be able to relax and look forward to the christmas holidays :)

i've nearly finished writing my college application just got half of it to go :/

i can't wait to see him...

i managed to get a million points on nearly all the songs on lips lol and thats without being able to sing

i have to go into skool tomorrow and help raise money for the yearbook, cant wait till we start making it, i'm really looking forward to seeing the pictures or everyone in year 7 :)

working the next two weekends :( oh well i need the money, i need to find a more permanent job :/

anyways thats it :)

laterz xx
love you my gorgeous amazing boyfriend :) xxx

hmmm...

well good day, bad day to be honest

arguements lol, dont get some people sometimes...

exams, i hate revision i never get it...

actually managed to write a song today, its like the first time in months...

bin writing more poems...

decided what career i want to do i have actually decided and i think its somethin i would be good at :)

i need to sort my head out, got too much stuff goin on that i dunno what to do about....


laterz x
love you xx

well...

today started off really well and i think things are deffinately looking up, i've got my coursework back on track and i just hope nothing goes wrong :)

i've finally found a site that lets me post all of my poems :)

i really love talking to him and can't wait for christmas.

nothing much has really happened today.


laterz xx
love you xxxx

All of my poetry

thelast site i tried meant i wasn't able to have all my poetry online due to not having enough points therefore i have changed the site i use

I've decided...

i've realized that i actually do write quite alot of poetry so i have decided to put it places:

http://www.writers-network.com/members/blitz0911

so if i don't post much here it means most of them are going onto the link :)

laterz x
love you xxx

well the day started off realli bad but has ended realli well :D

hearing his voice is the best thing that i can spend my time doing, ... well apart from being with him. which i can't wait for christmas it's going to be so good to see him :)

well it was my dad's birthday today and he now has his laptop, and took me and my mum out shopping. i had the day off school coz i went to bed with a migrane and didnt get any sleep so i spent all morning asleep :(

i'm going to have to spend all weekend doing my coursework and revision :( then i think i'm ment to be working the following weekend :/ but i'm not sure, this time of the year is great coz i dont have to do much, but i kinda is anoying coz that means i dont get paid :( well it wont be long till i can get a full time job :) and it's a year till i can start to drive :) which is even better :)

i really cn't wait for christmas it's going to be so good, to spend some time with him, it should be good to find out what my mates think of him as well :) but tbh i think they'll get on wiv him especially as they know how happy he makes me :)

i wrote this and i'm not sure if i've posted it :/

please don't go away
i cant let our love go astray
i dont want to watch you walk away
everytime i'm close to you
i know you'll always be mine
i need you more each day
and for this i pray
for you to stay
how can i show you that you live inside my mind
our hearts will remain intertwined
walking together hand in hand
how can everyone misunderstand
this is our love for each other
i know i'll never find another
everytime i hear your voice
i get a feeling i can't explain
a feeling like never before
i want you to be with me forever
going on a journey through whatever
i just want you to be next to me
side by side forever is where we should be

well havent had really much happen today other than discover lips is easier to play than singstar :) either that or i can actually sing which is very unlikely :)

well thats it realli :)

laterz xx
love you xxxxx

:)

had a good day today :)
birthday cake is nearly gone :(
gettin there wiv my textiles coursework :)

bin writing again :)

close in my heart
but in reality far apart
together we're meant to be
i know you'll agree
with you by my side
i never want to hide this feeling i have inside
distance doesnt mean anything to me
together is how we're meant to be
we'll be fine
just make sure you stay mine
lets do this together
at least then we know we'll be forever




this is just like realli funny we were all watchin it in media today, although bout 2 of those happened to me :/ when i played

anyways thats bout it

laterz xx
i love you xxxx

he is........

i really do think he is too good for me, he would do anything to see me, just hope we can. i love him and cant believe my parents are actually willing to let him stay, i just hope we can sort it out so that he can :)

its bin along time since i've posted one so i thought i'd post this seeing as it's rememberence sunday:

fighting for you and me
so we can be what we want to be
giving their lives
spend a minute to think about those that didnt survive
the wives left behind
see them come home
give them some respect
what more could we expect
they give everything for us
not doing it for some kind of buzz
lives are lost
for a big cost
you shouldn't have anything to hide
becuase they're our pride
give a thought to the families
forget about the controverise
they're our herose
lets support them in what they need to do
remember it's for me and you

for him:

walking hand in hand
strolling side by side
i stare into your eyes
met by your longing gaze
it's a feeling that you cant miss
greeted by your kiss
just tp be with you
is all i'd ever want to do


i hope that we'll be able to see each other soon...

laterz xx
love you babe xxxx

i havent felt this ill in like forever :(

well after last night i dont think i have ever had a night where i have had less sleep all because of being ill :(, i wish i could get rid of this headache....

i was listening to the soldiers today actually some quite good music and got me thinking and i ended up writing some more poems :) there agen listening to music and thinking bout him is normally where i get my ideas from :D



when we are together no words need to be said
no words need to be said
whenever you are near
all the small things just disappear
i am glad that you have found me
because together i know we are meant to be

- us

everytime i'm confused
you help me figure everything out
because of you, i know the true meaning
the simple words that make everything alright
whether i cry all night
all i need is those words
and i know i'll make it through

-the words you speak

if i could have one wish
i wouldnt ask for money
i wouldnt ask for the lastest label
i wouldnt ask for a fast car
i wouldnt ask for diamonds

if i could have one wish
i would ask for one day with you
i would ask for you love
i would ask to know how you really feel
i would ask to not have to let you go

-wishing on a star

walking hand in hand
strolling side by side
i stare into your eyes
met by your longing gaze
it's a feeling you can't miss
greeted by your kiss
just to be with you
is all i'd ever want to do

- a feeling no one can miss

the things we do together
will stay in my mind forever
the trust we share
no one can compare

i'll stick by you
in whatever you do
i know life can be tough
but i hope that i can be there for you enough

- together

one thing i know
is that you mean everything to me
i wish i could
tell the world
what you mean to me

i would do anything for you
take a star from the sky if you asked me too
talking till the morning light
holding each other tight

-you mean to me

some say heavens not real
but i've found mine and it's in you
you stollen my heart
now we cant be apart
your truly something special sent to me
you'll always have my heart
we'll never fall apart

-my heaven

take me in you arms
away from all harm
pull me into you chest
this is my only request
when i'm down
you always find away to be around
you whisper words of reassurance
it's becoming a common occurrence
your words pull me through
all the time so true
i long for the day i'm there for you
and all you go through

-guiding me


those are the ones that are finished :)

maybe one day i could find my proffession in poetry :P

10 days till i'm 16 :D i'm so excited but i dont know what i'm gettin off of anyone and i normally get it out of someone by now :(

well thats all i have to say other than,

I love him :)
and i feel really ill :(
but the first one makes the other not matter :D

laterz xx

bin one of them days :(

i dunno why but today has just dragged on, it seems like its bin forever since this morning.

i managed to drag myself out of the house and go for a run, do some speed skipping and 100 sit ups and 100 push ups. It helped me clear my head :)

i dunno why but i can't stop writing stuff about scott, it's like the words just write themselves.

I'm stuck on you
i'm falling i love
with everything you do
i want it to be you and me
forever and always
it's the way it should be
we're together forever
i never want to let you go
this i want you to know
don't walk in front of me, i may not follow
don't walk behind me, i may not lead
just walk beside me, and be all that i need
without you my heart is left without a beat
without you in my arms my life is incomplete
i want to be the smile you put on your face
the girl you hold in your embrace
just don't ever leave or walk away
this may seem clicke
but i love you forever and always

- forever and always


i've spent all day writing, but i think thats one of the best :D

i dunno why but my head seems to of filled itself up with everything bad from the past, and everything seems to be bringing itself up for some reason and i realli wish it wouldnt


anyways thats it

laterz xx

Another one :)

Whenever you need me
i'll be wherever you want me to be
our lve means so much
built on unconditional trust
impossible to mistake
our special love built to last forever

-something special

I wanna hold your hand
be the one to guide you through
i don't want anyone else
to share all the smiles and tears
to hold me forever
because i know that we belong together

-together forever

we haven't known each other long
although that doesn't mean
we wouldn't know
each other through and through

take my hand
and show me your love firsthand
kiss my lips
no need to follow a script
your touch so gentle
every moment so sentimental

-knowing you



Well i didn't write anything yesterday so i thought i'd make up for it (happy now??)

Well yeah i didn't really do anything yesterday other than talk to scott and write more poems and lyrics

Everything is all sorted for my big sis's birthday :) and i still aint decided what i would like for my birthday :/.... 11 days


laterz xx

SCOTT :)

everytime i hear your voice
i know i made the right choice
writing my first name with your last making me your mrs
everday i long for one of your kisses
you light up my life when things get dark
our fingers intertwined strolling around the park
if they day turns into night i'll love you by candlelight
just promise me this, never to fight
you're my world
when our eyes met i knew my heart was sold
together we can be a teen love story with a happy ending
because when i'm with you my heart doesn't need mending
whoever said dreams don't come true
hasn't seen me with you

- meant to be

I wrote that :D i was realli proud of myself :P until i realized that some of it didnt fit so i had to re write it now is sounds ok when you say it. I got the idea of it from a song but yeah....

I can't believe he read it :/ i give in too easily to him.

Well so far i have had successfull day at practicing my guitar, keyboard and avoiding my revision :)

....At last she's okay :D

Lmao at my mother bless her :p i love her crippledness and the fact that we have all these wierd contraptions in out house, first the chair for when your in the kitchen, then the bathroom frame thing, next apparently its the knife thats like a saw, lol

well less than two weeks till my birthday :D and my mum and dad refuse to buy me a new electric guitar :( on the upside my sis's birthday meal is all sorted and we are gettin hellium balloons :D

well thats it,

Laterz xx

how does he do it

Scott has done it again, everytime i think we're just drifting apart he says something and it makes me realize that everything he is is everything I want. :)

18 crikey, big sis deffinately IS big sis. But i'm still stuck with what i'm goin to get her :/ maybe it will have to be the toothbrush that i very much promised her :P. Well there's always the beloved vouchers chosen with every bit the care, love and affection. Well maybe the male escort would be the way to go, at least then she'd get a bit of fun out of it.

Why can't I get through this without wanting to text him, I guess he has just about taken over all but every part of me.

I can't believe how powerful spoken word poetry is, I always used to think of it like rap and people just saying a poem to music, but some people don't even say their pieces to music. My attempt at it was deffinately a big FAIL but i'm not going to give up, i've decided i want my poetry to be heard even if this is going to take some time at developing the skill i need to say all the passion of the words. whoever said teenagers can't put some good out never met me. HA! well i'll try my best i'm sure i can get my message across :/

Well i got back my epic fail of chemistry coursework, i don't get how brains does it i mean she's so clever how can she associate herself with me :/ another A* for her to add to the record and another C for me and a note for improvement (bit late for that now eh miss)

Laterz xx