Not really had a very exciting day today...

Went to Tesco’s, sorted my guinea pig & rabbit out, played on the Xbox (actually had a chance today :o).

As you can see I haven’t really done a lot.

I’m so looking forward to summer this year, camp the first week of summer, back for a week, then 2 weeks in Cumbria with the family, back for a week then friends birthday shizz in the last week :D, plus work around all of that. Gonna be a good summer I think, with lots more memories :)

I decided that my first choice for camp is gonna be Gradbach, it’s Derbyshire and it looks well good!

Got a few half terms before though, so I should be able to revise for all my exams and hopefully see Scott sometime (fingers crossed).

This year is going to be a busy year, exams, summer, revision, college, learning to drive... it’s gonna be crazy!! But I’m looking forward to it because I have amazing people around me.

I realised today that on Tuesday I’ll have been with Scott for 3 weeks, already! It’s gone so quick!! I do love him and I miss him so much but when I can drive I'll to be able to drive and be able to see him whenever I’m free.

Monday again tomorrow only two more weeks of school till Easter 

Laterz xx
Love you baby, miss you so much xxxxx

a long time coming

I know this blog has been a long time coming, but here it is...

I can now definitely say that I do truly want to be with Scott however hard that is. He may not be perfect, but to me he couldn’t be more perfect! I know that we won’t see each other much until after my exams, because of all of my coursework and exams that are coming up. But I do know something, we are going to be alright and I’m going to be there for him as much as I can. He’s going to Spain tomorrow :( which means I won’t be able to talk to him for a week... I'm finally seeing us moving on out of this mess, together and not having to split up because of it, i'm not saying that i'm a 100% sure of it but its deffinately starting to seem a lot better.

I actually can’t believe how quickly the exams are coming; I seriously need to start revision and putting in some over time with my textiles sketchbook!

I managed to get my mum and dad to definitely agree to let me go to camp again this year; I’m well excited and looking forward to it! Now all I’ve got to do is chose which one I want to go too.

Laterz xx
I love you babe xxxx

one day you'll realise dat you'll be alright.

I think i have found my talent, writing, i dunno why but recently all i have been doin is sitting down and writing. I keep getting all these ideas in my head and i just seem to be able to write endlessly. One day hopefully i'll have a published book.

right now i have realised to appreciate what i've got. i'm always going to have arguments with people, it happens to everyone, so the best thing is to ignore the bitchy comments, there going to happen where ever i am, whatever i'm doing. I've got great friends and they really do balance out the people who hvae a dislike for me, they can keep me happy and they know what to say and when to say it. I have an amazing boyfriend and yeah i know we're only teenagers but what i feel for him i havent felt for anyone else, i am really lucky to have him and what we have. I couldn't bare to lose him.

Our exams are coming up and i am behind on a lot of coursework, not sure if i want to go to college anymore, but i'm gonna concentrate on getting it done.

today i've spent a lot of time thinking about me and him, i am truely lucky to have him, i just hope i can get the whole distance thing out of my head, especially after last night, i hated not being able to just be there for him, its hard, and i want to forget about the distance but i don't know if i'll be able to deal with it like i did last time. Especially after all the problems we went through last time, we both started turning to other people and he ended up turning and falling for someone else, all this stuff is going round in my head and i guess i can't break off from the past. It's tough and i want to make a fresh start with him, but this time we have a history together and we arent just starting out, its like it's different somehow. i'm not saying i dont care about him coz i do, i'm crazy about him, but things just seem different. I can't see it as a fresh start because it isn't. we don't have a proper relationship right now, coz of the distance, we can't actually see each other till the holidays and its goin to be like that till i can drive and then i'm going to have pressure from college. Hopefully i'll sort this out in my head. i don't want us to be over, thats the last thing i want, i just want a way of sortin this out in my head. to be able to forget about the distance, i really do appreciate having him in my life, i just wish it was easier... thats all

everything when your a teenager is drama... it needs to be simpler

laterz xxx

love you baby, things will be good soon, we'll be able to be together soon. for now all we can do is dream about being together xxxxx

Maybe it's love this time....

I don't think anyone or anything can change the mood i am in right now :D i am sooo happy! It's all down to one person. Scott! Yeaah we're back together, took long enough, but i'm pretty sure it's gonna work this time.

Bless him this morning :)

Had four maths exams today... FOUR. They were all resits as well...

Well, media was realli funny,

Mr H: what does the watershed mean claire?

Claire: you can swear and all that sh!t before 9pm

lol the best part was mr houghton didnt hear what she sed, lmao

Media studies = the best studies :D

brenna's new name: rofl lmao

No more exams for a while i don't think

My hpone won't hold its charge at the moment it's realli annoying...

Textiles tomorrow, wonders what heeks has got instore for me :/ i swear that woman has it in for me...

Not realli got much to say, i'm just realli happy :D

Laterz xx
I love you babee xxxxx

I want to hold you and hold you... (alicia keyss)

I totally love that cover :)

It's weird when you are totally sure of something or someone then the smallest thing has to happen to change that.

I have this amazing guy, louis how i totally fell for after he was there for me when i was going through a rough time with scott, we were breaking up after finding out he was cheating on me and it just wasn't working. So Louis was there not judging me for giving it ago, and just being there for me when everything was falling apart. Then we just got closer and closer, and well yeah we ended up together. I thought he was everything, he got on with my parents, he was great to be around, he knew how to make me smile, and was just a great boyfriend. Then he wanted things to move a lot faster than i did, and wanted us to spend a lot more time together that i couldn't give him, with all of my exams, we started arguin about everything and well yeah then it's kind of obvious from there... we split up...

Then i have scott who was great when i was with him. Cute, funny, everything you could ask for, only problem we didn't really get to see each other. But then things went messed up, well they went really messed up. I thought he was cheating on me, the distance wasn't working out, he were starting to drift apart, i guess i ended up feelinh like i couldn't trust him because of small things that went on, lieing about little things that didnt matter but they did in the end.

Now both of them want to be in my life again, but in more ways than as a friend. Until this morning i was absolutely sure i wanted it to be louis then scott was in my head until i had a proper conversation with louis. I'm pretty sure, well more than sure, that i want to make a proper go of things wiht louis, not because i don't care about scott but because of everything that happened before and the reasons why we split up last time, we've just become really close friends again, and i think for now its best that it stayed that way.

Talking with haidee has really helped lol we always talk about our relationship issues :/ She made me realise how much i really do care about louis, and i want to have a fresh start with him.



It won't be easy, i know that because my parents have told me that they don't want us together, but i'm pretty sure it won't take them long to see that he make me happy, and that i want to be with him. If he changes and does what he did before then i won't want to but it will be over then. But i don't know why but most of my friends have changed their minds about him, or seen that i hate being without him because they keep saying that if he makes me happy i should be with him.

Hopefully everything will work out the way i want it too...

Looking forward to cromer after prom should be gooooodd :)

Anyways, thats it

Laterz xx

bit dull atm

Just realised I have two exams next week and I haven’t revised at all, aaahh well.

Tomorrow afternoon with him <3

Haven’t really done much recently just spending time with Louis and catching up on coursework, life is a bit dull at the moment.

Laterz xoxo

quick changes

I couldn't ask for a better way to spend my weekend other than with Louis, I really hope is great granddad pulls through.

It's kind of funny how yesterday I was saying how lucky I am to have all of my friends, and I am, but I wish it all came without the problems. I mean how come us girls can be so bitchy, it would all be so much simpler if we were just like guys, throw a few punches and be mates again. But no, we hold the worlds longest grudges to the point that we don't even remember why we were holding the grudge in the first place. It's through these ties that you know who your true friends are as they are the ones who never judge you and let you and the other person work things out without getting involved.

The last couple of days have showed me how much me and Louis need each other, with everything going on with his family and eerything going on between me and my friends, it's good to know that we have each other to turn to. I don't know what i would have done without him the last couple of months, even while i was with scott and he couldnt be there for me Louis was always willing to listen and was always there for me, I am so glad that weve become what we have, because I don't know where I would be without him right now especially as it looks like i may lose one of the people i'm closest to.

Well the highlight of my day was ermm, well it was school can't really say there was a highlight to my day can i?? So, looking forward to tomorrow the whole afternoon with louis, and then the same on sunday, well who needs revision.

I dont really have a clue why but i can never bring myself to revise for any of my exams supposed to have sience exams next week but i just can't concentrate on the revision, to be honest i can't really be asked anymore either i can't wait to leave school and just start aain somewhere new.

anyways thats me done for today,

laterz xoxoxo

well i fail at life

got my final mock results apart from english coz half the teachers are ill :@

maths - c
biology - e
chemistry - d
physics - d
media - b
graphics - b
textiles - b

but the grades that are gonna get sent off with my college application are

maths - b
biology - c
chemistry - b
physics - b
ict btec - destinction
media - a
graphics - a
textiles - a

i dunno why theres different for our college applications but oh well there better grades so i'm not complaining... just got to get them now

a whole day of english tomorrow :( all in aid of a poetry essay, well i get to spend the day wiv hayley, molly, nikki, haids and mich :) so it will be a good day hopefully :)

lol graphics and my chocolate bar from max :) didnt actually think i would get one :)

ict :D

mediaaa betherz :P

i love him :) and i realli cant wait to see him :)<3

laterz x
love you babyy xxxx

:(

grrrr punched a basketball out of fustration today :( now my hand is all bruised :(

well i knew i'd failed in these exams but not this much:

maths: 32/60
physics: 15/42
biology: E can't remember what i got
textiles: B

major fail so far havent got the rest of my results yet

really cant wait to be wiv my babee :)



i love that song

everything about him is amazing and i dont know what i would do wiv out him, he's so special to me. i cant stay annoyed wiv him and even whe people say to me he shouldnt say those kinda things to me i still end up defending him its like i cant take people judging him when i know what he's really like and how we are together , i know we're gonna get through this, he's everything to me.

i'm really not looking forward to gettin all my other results :/

anyways,

laterz xx
i love you babeee and i always will no matter what happens we can work through it
xxxxxxx

5 hours down 5 to gooo

i love him havent bin able to get him out of my head all day....

done half of my textiles exam todai, just glad he dont go to my skool lol :/ we were al abit hyper at lunch todai :) good times

bin writtin another new hook so i hope this time i'll be able to find a new beat to it never know i might be able to write a whole song outa it :)

laterz xx
love you babee i always will xxx

well...

todai has been rather shit, deffinately failed english, might have just about scrapped a pass on maths and media :/

ten hours of textiles next week .....GREAT :(

feeling worse than i did before, it may have somethin to do wiv sitting in the freezing cold sports hall for the last week :@

hope i dont loose him...

work tomorrow :(

lmao at the driving lesson jokes wiv louis :P

laterz xxx

well..

there isnt realli alot to write about todai, its bin pretty shit tbh. had exams all day and vertually lost my voice. not to mention the fact that certain people just dont seem to get the message.

laterz x
love yuo xxx

I Love you

i love westlife, but not as much as i love him :)

i know i've deffinately failed chemistry and biology so far :) possibly english too oh well

hopefull i get higher than c's too get into college

not got much too say realli, feelin realli ill now though :(

laterz x
love you bubs xxx

exams....

it's that time already :( started our mocks but they're realli important as they are the grades that get sent off to the colleges that we apply for :/

was realli ill last nite the first time i've felt that bad in ages :( but he made me feel so much better :) headaches and generally feeling really bad isnt good still not properly fine today but way better than i was, bin told i have to spend less time on the computer...

nearly finished my personal statement i have decided the career i want to do after a long talk to one of my teachers she was really helpful though and i have an idea of the course i want to do just hope i get in now... (fingers crossed)

realli looking forward to christmas, cant wait to see him its going to be soo good :) i think he'll like his christmas present, not telling what it is though :)

working two weekends in a row straight after the mocks and i wont be able to talk to him for those weekends :( but i guess its not all bad as it means i'll have more money to spend on christmas presents :)

anyways thats it for now, revision time agen :( english and chemistry :(

laterz x
love you xxxx

hmmm...

well good day, bad day to be honest

arguements lol, dont get some people sometimes...

exams, i hate revision i never get it...

actually managed to write a song today, its like the first time in months...

bin writing more poems...

decided what career i want to do i have actually decided and i think its somethin i would be good at :)

i need to sort my head out, got too much stuff goin on that i dunno what to do about....


laterz x
love you xx

christmas :)

well i really hope scott can come in the christmas holidays, i really want to see himjust hope that nothing comes up :)

had quite a good day today but need something to look forward to coz all i have is these exams that they but back by like 3 weeks :(

me and half my mates have started listening to christmas songs already :)





i know what i'm getting him for christmas and i know he'll really like it, well he better do coz theres alot of effort involved in finding the right place to get it :)

can't wait to see him, it'll be sooooo good if i can :)

anyways waterloo road on tv tonite then maybe a little chat with him :) and possibly some coursework :/ (gaaah i hate school but i suppose only 6/7 months left then i can do what i want)

thinking bout not going to college and just getting a job :) that way i can do what i want when i want, and i'm actually sick of schools and teachers, wish i could leave now but if i did that then i would have no chanc eof getting a job and my parents would actually kill me :( all i've got to do is find a job somewhere, and then i'm sorted :)

really disliked biology today :( eyeballs are officially the most disgusting thing everrr.

i really wish sometimes i could just see him, and just spend some time together...

maybe i won't fail textiles anymore :) i've actually got some work done :P

i love it when he say i love you especially as we can't be together when we want to, but hearing his voice makes up for it. i love finding things out about him and can't wait to hear more embarrassing stories about him, good job there arent many bout me :) otherwise i would be worried bout what he could find out :P.

i hate talkin bout myself it makes me feel bigheaded, and there aint actually much to talk about to be totally honest, if people want to know stuff bout me then generally have to ask :)

can't wait to go christmas shopping especially now the ice rink is up on parkers peace :) the lights are gonna be well good this year, shame i cant go see them bein switche don this year was good the other year :( oh well :P. maybe i'll go skatin at some point agen last year was good especially wiv all the lights round it and dinner afterwards was a laugh, my cousin knows how to cheer me up :) shame i can't skate properly, hopefully we'll be able to go to ice planet in peterborough wiv the skool agen coz last year it was good i actually learnt how to skate properly but can't remember half of it :(

i really love christmas, and it's only the second week of november :/ that means bout 6 weeks till christmas day :) 45 days apparently :) not actually that long.

just got to decide what i'm getting my brother and sister for christmas now :/ i know what i'm getting everyone else :)

new year should be really good got my auntie and uncle and my cousin coming over on new years eve and maybe some other family too :) the summer holiday wiv them was great especially when we were all playin badminton that was pretty funny specially when me and my dad where beatin everyone :) it was realli hot too, still got a slight bit of my tan although it's goin pretty quick :(.

i really want to go to DI4R agen next year but not sure which one :/ probs not where i went this year, coz i want to try soemthin new :)

got rehearsals agen on friday for the christmas concert still cant figure out why i'm singing in it :/ some of the songs are good and it should be a laugh mr B is funny anyways so rehearsals are good specialy if bren bren turns up agen me and her had a laugh dancin last week :)

well thats basically all i have to say :) thought i'd fill in some of the gaps, seeing as he was at kick boxing and i didnt have much else to doooo :)

laterz xx
love you babe xxxx

I Love him :D

i'm so glad that i've got scott back :D and love everything about him, he's amazing :) i can't believe he'd want me back after i ended it. i've bin so happy today all because of him:)

anyways they have moved our exams :@ so now they're in somethin like three weeks, got no idea why and our reports are late :@ but there agen i aint too bothered about that :/

today i managed to make my arm swell up playing volleyball no idea what happened but nearly got taken to hospital :/ but its all gd apparently it was only something like a bruise or sprain but it dont hurt or anythin :)

maybe i'll try doin some textiles tonight or graphics :) dunno gotta get some revision done and have a look at future careers apparently :/



anyways thats it for now

laterz xx
love you baby xxx