Quick Catch Up

I’ve been kind of neglecting my blog the past few days, mainly because everything has been really hectic.


Well it looks like the time I’m already going to be spending with Scott in Easter half term is going to be extended. This is because I’m hopefully going to be going back with Scott when he leaves mine and then staying with him for a bit so I can watch him play his football match. It should happen seeing as both of our parents have agreed to it. So it looks like Easter really is going to be amazing! Especially as we’ll be celebrating being together for a year, and we’ve got our picnic as long as the weather is good, a shopping trip, Hannah and Milly’s party plus anything else we decide to do.

College is going really well at the moment too which is a bonus.

Everything is all good again

Today I’ve spent all day in the car because day wanted to pick up some new tyres for his landrover.

That’s all I’ve got to say really...

Laterz xo

Love you xxxxx

I’m a scorpio…

Basically I follow a scorpio horoscope thing on twitter and everything they wrote in this 90 facts about me are all basically true so I thought I would post them:

1. I'm a scorpio (I know.. *gasp*)
2. Most people think I'm mean but if you get to know me, I'm actually a cool person
3. I am a difficult person to get to know, Scorpios are secretive
4. You’ll never really know what I’m thinking. I could be feeling you but you wouldn’t know it
5. If I go out of my way to talk to you, I either care about you or you have something I want
6. Flirting does nothing for me. Confidence = turn on, as well as simple little things
7. I think about sex more than I care to admit
8. It may seem like I’m picky when it comes to love, but I’m really just weeding out all the dummies
9. I don’t trust anybody completely
10. I am irritable
11. I know how to push your buttons
12. I usually get what I want, I’m persuasive like that
13. I don’t let people in because they won’t understand the depths of my thoughts
14. So i keep it to myself and smile
15. I’m a people watcher
16. I like to be left alone, I need my space
17. You don’t want to see me mad
18. I’m independent but would love to love somebody
19. If I let you in you will see that I’m one of the most downest people you’d ever meet
20. I’m a serious person but I'm funny too, I’d do anything to make you laugh even at my own expense
21. I feel 1000000000 times stronger than most. But I know how to keep it together
22. I'm an affectionate person. Not in public though. Unless I'm in *that* kinda mood
23. I keep my friends close, and my enemies closer
24. I'm nocturnal
25. You probably don't know about it, but I have HUGE goals in life
26. You're all bark, no bite. I'M ALL BITE (Don't talk about it BE about it)
27. I'm a great multitasker..at work, home, in the bedroom (keep that in mind *wink wink*)
28. 1 of the best ways to lose me quick is to try to make me say or do something I don't want to do
29. When we're talking, give me your undivided attention or leave me alone
30. I will give you all of me, and I want the same in return
31. 98% of you wouldn't be able to handle me
32. Keep me happy and interested, and you'll have a loyal partner for life
33. I won't stick around if I'm not interested. I can't be fake, sorry
34. Hurt my family, I'll hurt you.. one way or another
35. WARNING: I can be addicting. When I'm gone you will experience withdrawal symptoms
36. I need someone who will support my ambition, not get in the way
37. I could be your best friend or worst enemy.
38. When I love, I love HARD. That's why I tend to love few. You have to be worth it
39. I could be difficult at times. I want to see you prove that you love me
40. I'm worth it. I promise <3
41. I don't like being bothered with questions. If you bother me, I'll ignore you
42. Don't play with me. I invented this game
43. I like to get my way, but I like it even more when there is a challenge involved
44. never show what I feel, NEVER
45. (We want) Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love
46. when we are quiet, we aren't being arrogant we are watching and thinking everything
47. I can sometimes forgive, but I NEVER forget
48. C0MPETETI0N ? BRING IT 0N
49. I love people, but I hate people
50. darkness is a state of mind we know too well.
51. Don't underestimate what I might know. I know everything about you!
52. we have an extreme passion within us. One that you'll probably mistake for what you think is love
53. I don't trust easy....so have patience...I will question you, deal with it...
54. I Never Let Some1 Play With My Feelings What So Ever!
55. The only thing that can stop ME from anything I put my mind to, is ME!
56. I know I'm a bitch...thanks for the compliment. :-) better a bitch than a doormat!
57. likes to read people but never let anyone read their minds
58. ready to have sex anywhere any time just give me a wink
59. Scorpios don't Trust easily. It has 2B Earned
60. we're so soft deep inside. our outside shell betrays big time!
61. Treat me good and I will treat you better, treat me bad and I will treat you worst
62. How about...I say what I want to say and I do what I want to do
63. I don't like being in emotional limbo. It's all or nothing.
64. If we fall down seven times, we'll get up eight times
65. I am not going to stick around if I see you flirting with someone else
66. I can be completely into you but if you do something I really dislike, we're done, YOU killed it
67. Once I see that other side of you, it will never be the same, I won't forget
68. It takes a lot to hurt me but fck... when I do hurt, it hurts SO bad
69. I'm super quiet when I'm upset. Nothing you do or say will get me to smile or react. Leave me alone
70. When I love someone I make them the center of my world, I put them above all others
71. I don't want to share you
72. Don't tell me what to do. If you do, I'll most likely do the opposite
73. I'm stubborn. Once I've made up my mind there's really nothing you could do. I'll applaud your effort though
74. I'm not impressed when you brag about superficial things. Don't throw yourself at me, it's tacky
75. I don't PLAY hard to get, I AM hard to get!
76. If I were to tell you what it takes to get me, I'd have to kill you
77. I like that subtle sex appeal and confidence. Nothing over the top. Don't try too hard
78. Lie to me and you'll get the blank stare
79. Sometimes I'll pretend I don't know something, to see if you'll admit to it or bring it up
80. I'm not afraid of you, you, or YOU! Try me, I DARE you
81. If I don't know you or don't like you, you don't exist. Don't flatter yourself thinking that you cross my mind
82. I could cut you out of my life in a split second if you cross me
83. Yea I'm a sexual person, it doesn't mean that I'll just sleep with ANYBODY though
84. It takes more than good looks to get me, I'm far from shallow
85. If I'm good to you, don't take my kindness for weakness. That can change QUICKLY
86. My mood can change in the blink of an eye. Be ready
87. It's hard to capture my interest, and hard to keep my interest.. but once you have it, you have it all
88. Seducing... it comes natural to me
89. I know I'm driving you crazy when I *casually* touch you in public. I act innocent though
90. I'm more in control than you think ;) I know exactly what I'm doing

Maybe it's time to cut lose

There have been good parts and bad parts to today.


College was really good it actually took my mind off of everything, which was great while it lasted.

Tristan at lunch was so funny, basically at our college like every other college round here there is a big thing about sexual health and safe sex and all of that and at the moment there are loads of give a ways and prizes if you do a Chlamydia test. Tristan really wants to win the Ipod that is one of the prizes so he has been trying to convince everyone to do a test so that he can enter for the Ipod on their behalf. His whole approach to it was really funny.
I have finally been able to sort out my bank account with Natwest, another stage closer to getting my job.
I honestly don’t think my parents are going to stay together much longer. I feel in away as if my whole life and everything I know is slowly falling apart. If they do split up I’m not going to choose between them, I’ll find somewhere where I don’t have to be a part of this anymore because what I have at home right now doesn’t feel like a family anymore. But what can I do? Nothing I just have to sit and watch as my whole family, everything I know falls apart.
Me and Scott aren’t feeling right at the moment either. He’s broken a promise to me and apparently people are going to try and break us up. Just what I need on top of everything else.

I really feel like cutting myself loose of everything and everyone and just working on getting through college and university and then worrying about everything afterwards.

Laterz xo

Love you xxx

Sometimes life goes back in time

Today feels like my life has gone back to where it was three years ago. everything was going down hill, nothing was going right and I felt like an outsider to my own family. Exactly how today has been and I guess the last few weeks has been working up to.

I’m glad that I’m starting my job in two weeks as then I’ll be able to start learning to drive and once I’ve done that I’ll be able to get away from home a bit. Especially at times like these when home doesn’t actually feel like home.

If things get any worse I’ll end up being where I was then and I really don’t want that.

I don’t want to be contemplating running away from home and turning my back on everything and everyone but if things continue to get worse then that’s what it’ll be again and I don’t want that. But sometimes you can’t fix things.

I don’t get on with anyone in my family anymore.

To be honest going to uni won’t come soon enough.

It would be nice to know that people are proud of me like my parents. All they ever do is put me down. Like when I decided to go to uni the best thing they could say was how are going to afford it yet when it was my sister they were telling everyone about it… life just isn’t fair sometimes.

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My second ebook is getting close to being finished.

I didn’t get to go skating today because the weather was terrible this morning.

Haven’t really done a lot at all really other than get shouted and having people have a go at me for various things.

I really need to get away but I can’t sacrifice how I’m doing at college.

Plus other people in the world have it worse than I do so really I can’t complain.

laterz xo

love you xxxx

It’s not about the money

I don’t really know what to right to be honest because there hasn’t really been a lot  happening.

I'm down to my last £10 so I’m really glad I’ve got my training for my new job coming up. I've already worked out what I want to save towards and buy when I get the job:

1. Driving lessons/ intensive course
2. Some new skates
3. Save for uni

they are the three things that I really want to work towards and hopefully I can buy once I’m earning.

Ringing last night was pretty good.

Went out shopping today and bought some new jeans which look like these:

I thought they were pretty cool plus I needed some new jeans.

Ermm not a lot else going on apart from waiting for this software to download but it’s taking forever…

Later xo

Love you xxxx

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Such a good day!

Today has been so good!

I had college this morning which was actually alright. My group in media finished our project which looks really good and we're all really pleased with how its ended up looking. Then my ICT lesson was great I've finished all my coursework which means I get last lesson off tomorrow, which is a bonus.

Then this afternoon I went into town with Milly, Hannah and George. First we walked all the way from college to the Lucky Star which is an all you can eat chinese buffet. We all ate ALOT because it was all so nice and we had a good chat about everything. Once we finished eating lunch their we carried on walking into the main part of town we visited the museum of zoology because Hannah and Milly needed to take some pictures of all the bugs, bones and stuff... Me and George saw this as an opportunity to mess around and pose with all the skeletons which was pretty funny. Then we went shopping, I bought my self a new necklace which had a pair of boxing gloves on it, which I absolutely love! We spent ages walking in and out of all the shops, when college finished Lucy, Matt, Charlie and Koshie came and met up with us we all went and messed around making Matt and Charlie dress up in all these clothes in topman which was pretty funny. Me and George then went over to the other side of town to look in Primark as George needed to get an outfit for rednose day (She's being sponsored to dress up as a man). Once we finished there we walked over to the bus stop and met up with Matt and got the bus back home.

When I got home I found out I've been put on the training for my new job on the 4th April! I really can't wait I'm going to be able to start earning money for myself!

Me and Scott aren't really talking much anymore, I don't know I feel like he's pushing me away. Like tonight we have hardly spoken, the other day we didn't speak all night, it's just getting less and less. Tonight I didn't even know we weren't going to be able to talk because he didn't tell me he was busy. It seems like he's telling me less and less and I don't know what to do.

Laterz xo
Love you xxx

Everything goes from bad to good

It's true everything really does go from bad to good, in a constant circle yesterday was no different.

This guy from my college died yesterday he was in a car accident another person from another college near mine is stll in hospital fingers crossed they are going to be okay.

My media lesson was also a bit of a disaster one guy in my production group didn't like what we had done but he hasn't been turning up and doesn't contribute to the group.

Then when I got home from college yesterday I found out my guinea pig had died... she was my first pet but she was quite old so I guess it was her age. I'm not getting another pet for a while because of college and then going to uni so 'm going to wait for life to calm down a bit first then I'm gioing to think about it.

Today things have been on the up! I got up and checked my e-mails I don't usually bother doing this until I get home from college as it's normally mostly junk, but today was different. I haven't been having much luck on the job front lately but in my inbox this morning I have been offered a job by a data entry company. This means I'll be able to work from home and do the hours I want when I want all I have to do now is get on one of their training sessions hopefully their is still places on the session for the 31st March as then I'll be able to start working in April. But in order to be able to get on that training session I need to get my bank account finalised so I need to get an appointment with them for this week so I'm going to spend my free later today at college trying to ring them up and sorting that out.

Getting that job has really made things seem a lot better as I'm now hopefully going to be able to afford stuff and not have to rely on other people all the time which will make me more inderpendant. Plus I'm now going to be able to start saving for uni too which is going to be a massive bonus.

It all just relies on me being able to sort my bank account out and being able to get on that training session.

Other than that there hasn't really been alot going on at the moment really.

Laterz xo

Love you xxxx

Today, well not a lot has happened today if I am honest.

Although something positive has come out of today, I have found a new hobby I want to start. This has been what I have spent most of today trying to find, I wanted to find a hobby that would be fairly cheap to start and that I can do whenever I have any spare time. So, I've spent most of today looking at different sports as I want something that I can get a bit of an adrenalin buzz out of. I kept coming back to the same thing, some kind of skating I know that skateboarding definitely isn't my thing as I've tried it before so I started looking at different forms of rollerblading and rollerskating and I came arcross in-line figure skating it's like figure skating but on land and looks like something I would enjoy and can get into especially after I used to dance and I used to rollerblade for a while so it's basically combining the two... Watch this space.

That's about all I've got to say really.

Laterz xx

Love you xxx

Please Take A Look

I don't normally advertise anything on my blog but this is a little advertisement for my OWN book.

Ever since I was 16 I started writing poetry and that is exactly what is in this ebook. My poems this is the first volume that I will be releasing. All you have to do to read the content is buy it and dnowload it as it is an ebook.

Everything that I earn from any books I write and sell I am planning on saving the money for uni.

Glory Glory Man Utd

Manchester united beat Arsenal tonight 2-0 I was quite happy about this fact.

Not really spoke to Scott all day as he’s been busy with a show he’s involved with.

I’ve spent the majority of the day putting together a poetry book that I am currently in the process of self publishing so that I can sell it and hopefully get some funds together for uni.

Not a lot else to say really,

Laterz xo

Love you xxxx

GOOD NEWS

Everything yesterday was surprisingly really good minor one little argument with Scott which is all sorted now so it’s okay.

I got an A in my business studies exam which I definitely wasn’t expecting and then I got a D in my politics exam which I wasn’t expect as I had failed all my other mock exams for politics so to pass it in the real ones was pretty good. I now have the second exam in both of these subjects in the summer, fingers crossed I can keep the grades up and get good grades in my other two subjects, ICT and media studies.

Had a good day with Lizzie yesterday and applied for two more jobs which Lizzie found for me, maybe they will come to something maybe not but you never know!

Had a bit of an argument with Scott last night over something stupid but it’s all sorted now. I’m really looking forward to him staying at Easter and to be able to spend some time with him.

I’ve started a new project and if you follow me on twitter you would know about it. I’m working on writing my own books the first of these is about business. I’m self publishing them so this could be quite a challenge to sell them but that’s where the challenge is anyways all I’ve got to do is market them and see what happens… in theory anyways.

Got bell ringing tonight I’m looking forward to it as we’re starting the methods properly now and properly playing hunt.

Laterz xo

Love you xxxx

Pancake day!

Wow, I’ve got 20 followers quite an increase to what I was at just a month ago!

Finally found a way of earning some money maybe although it might take a while for me to actually earn anything from it but all we can do is wait and see. Basically I’m writing articles online I posted a few links but rather than doing that all the time I’ve put a link on the left to it but you can take a look at my profile here: http://www.squidoo.com/lensmasters/staceywrites

Scott is coming to stay in five weeks! If you can’t tell already I’m really looking forward to it, it’s going to be really good to see him again.

It’s pancake day today which is great because it means I’ve been off college and been able to eat pancakes all day, such a great combination! We were off college today because it was admissions day for all the applicants for next year so that they could have interviews. My cousin had one and by the sounds of it she did okay and should get in!

I get my results from my January exams on Thursday, I’m really nervous about it but I’m okay about it as well because I know that I can re-sit them. I need an A in my Business exam to get into Uni which means I will definitely be resitting the exam in the summer as I didn’t know what I wanted to do before I did the exam and all I wanted to was leave college but everything has changed now and I want to go on to Uni which means I need to sort my grades out. That may take a bit of work which will be shown in those exams!

Not a lot else going on at the moment. It’s a short day at college tomorrow which is great because I’m tired and don’t fancy being there in all honesty but I need to be to get the grades!

Oh yeah one more thing, I saw a car crash today when I went out this morning it was definitely one thing you only want to see happen once! It felt like it was all happening in slow motion. It was lucky that no one was seriously hurt though!

Laterz xo

Love you xxx

Writing with Squidoo

I have recently started writing articles also known as lens within squidoo:

Review of a book called Freesourcing by Jonathan Yates: http://www.squidoo.com/freesourcing

Article - Memories from being a 90's Kid http://www.squidoo.com/memories-from-being-a-90s-kid

Article - How to understand market share http://www.squidoo.com/how-to-understand-market-share

Article – Understanding primary market research http://www.squidoo.com/understanding-primary-market-research

Article – How to generate business ideas http://www.squidoo.com/how-to-generate-business-ideas

Article – How to conduct start-up market research http://www.squidoo.com/how-to-conduct-start-up-market-research

Article – How to conduct start-up market research (2) http://www.squidoo.com/how-to-conduct-start-up-market-research-part-2-

Article – Choosing The right legal structure http://www.squidoo.com/business-advice-support

Please take a look and tell me what you think! I’ll try to keep writing more articles and posting them for you to read too!

Monday morning…

I haven’t done a lot this weekend so it feels good to be Monday again, quite surprising really!

It’s a long day but I do have tomorrow off so there is an upside. Me and Scott have been together for 11 months but it doesn’t actually feel like that long.

Not a lot else to say really…

Laterz xo

Love you xxx

PS. Hi to an new followers

Making Memories

Today has been a pretty average day… spent the majority of it writing content for my other blog, although I have nearly already reach 100 hits on it which I am quite happy with.

I went bell ringing last night with my Dad, it was quite good although the church felt unusually cold.

Life is going pretty good at the moment, my aunty is out of hospital and recovering pretty well. College seems to be pretty good. I get my results from my January exams on the 10th so I may need to re-sit them now that I know what I want to do at university and what grades I need to achieve.

I’ve also been planning how me and Scott can celebrate being together a year when he comes to stay at Easter.  As our anniversary will be the week before he come to stay so  I thought it would be good to do something together. So far I have come up with a long walk, a picnic by the river, walking back to mine, having dinner (I might cook but I haven’t quite decided that yet :L). going out for another walk to go watch the sunset together walking back to mine and then hopefully if my parents agree making some pop corn together picking out some dvds and cuddling up on the sofa and watching different films all night. I was thinking seeing as he come on the Wednesday it would be nice to do it on the Thursday as he would have been on the train for most of Wednesday and probably wouldn’t want to do much so I thought it would be good to keep it simple and relaxed. Then maybe coming up with something for Friday and Saturday as well so that we do something each day to celebrate being together, especially as we don’t normally get to spend anytime together.

About it really,

Laterz xo

Love you xxxx

There isn’t a reason not to smile…

Well I am back at college and it actually feels good to be back and in the routine again! Had a good two lessons and catch up with everyone as well which always makes a first day back even better.

Last night I told Scott about the surprise I had planned for him when he comes to stay at Easter as I wasn’t sure if he would like it or not, I know that ruins the surprise but I’m glad I told him because it gives us something extra to look forward to when he comes to stay. I’ve been planning (depending on if the weather decides to let us be able to) go on a long walk and a picnic and then have a long walk back to my house because I think it would be nice for us to have some time for us that’s relaxed and for just us. Plus I thought it would be kind of romantic and a nice way to celebrate being together a year because by the time we stays we will have reached our one year anniversary! I’m still trying to come up with some different ideas of what we could do while we stays as well which we would be different to what we’ve done before, which is proving to be quite difficult.

Milly and Hannah have been planning a joint party for their birthday’s in Easter half term with he theme ‘beauty and the geek’ which I thought was pretty clever but this might fall on one of the nights Scott is at mine, it think it will be a good night but I don’t want him to feel as if we have to go because I don’t want him to feel like we have to do anything if he doesn’t want to do it, especially as I want him to be happy and not pressured into us doing going anywhere.

I should probably fill you in on the new blog I have been working on, http://modernbusinessknowledge.blogspot.com/. This is my new project as I am really interested in business and how they are run I really wanted to share what I know with people and though this was the best way of doing it! Although it’s been quite a lot of work to get up and running so far...

Not a lot else to say really,

Laterz xo

Love you xxxxxx