Christmas songsss

had a good day today lstening to all of the old christmas songs :) i know its early but i felt the need for some christmas music :)

bin out all day then spent 2 hours doin coursework, i actually think i wont be able to look at another physics book in my life :o then i decided i'd do and hour of graphics which has turned into a lot more :(

my sister got some of her presents early; and was allowed to open them :O, a laptop and some wine wish they were mine :P the meal tomoz should be good though would be better if crazy but cute was there :)

well haven't bin able to write anything today but i'll do some later (fingers crossed)

my birthday is soon but still haven't got anything that i really want :/ so it'll be surprises all round :)

laterz xx
love you babe xxx

SCOTT

i never thought that one i would be wiv an arsenal supporter (sorry you had it comin after you sed the same bout me :P)
but never a guy that has done ballroom, tap and cheerleading but now plays football. I guess people change :)

and i'm deffinately looking forward to that candle lit dinner you've promised me :)

well sometime people can be realli decieving theres brians in there as well, quite impressive :P

well i'm glad he's like that because he's mine and always will be.

he deffinately has a good taste in films :)

he's made me feel so much better :D
i love talkin to him

laterz xx
love you (thats for him :P) xxx

i havent felt this ill in like forever :(

well after last night i dont think i have ever had a night where i have had less sleep all because of being ill :(, i wish i could get rid of this headache....

i was listening to the soldiers today actually some quite good music and got me thinking and i ended up writing some more poems :) there agen listening to music and thinking bout him is normally where i get my ideas from :D



when we are together no words need to be said
no words need to be said
whenever you are near
all the small things just disappear
i am glad that you have found me
because together i know we are meant to be

- us

everytime i'm confused
you help me figure everything out
because of you, i know the true meaning
the simple words that make everything alright
whether i cry all night
all i need is those words
and i know i'll make it through

-the words you speak

if i could have one wish
i wouldnt ask for money
i wouldnt ask for the lastest label
i wouldnt ask for a fast car
i wouldnt ask for diamonds

if i could have one wish
i would ask for one day with you
i would ask for you love
i would ask to know how you really feel
i would ask to not have to let you go

-wishing on a star

walking hand in hand
strolling side by side
i stare into your eyes
met by your longing gaze
it's a feeling you can't miss
greeted by your kiss
just to be with you
is all i'd ever want to do

- a feeling no one can miss

the things we do together
will stay in my mind forever
the trust we share
no one can compare

i'll stick by you
in whatever you do
i know life can be tough
but i hope that i can be there for you enough

- together

one thing i know
is that you mean everything to me
i wish i could
tell the world
what you mean to me

i would do anything for you
take a star from the sky if you asked me too
talking till the morning light
holding each other tight

-you mean to me

some say heavens not real
but i've found mine and it's in you
you stollen my heart
now we cant be apart
your truly something special sent to me
you'll always have my heart
we'll never fall apart

-my heaven

take me in you arms
away from all harm
pull me into you chest
this is my only request
when i'm down
you always find away to be around
you whisper words of reassurance
it's becoming a common occurrence
your words pull me through
all the time so true
i long for the day i'm there for you
and all you go through

-guiding me


those are the ones that are finished :)

maybe one day i could find my proffession in poetry :P

10 days till i'm 16 :D i'm so excited but i dont know what i'm gettin off of anyone and i normally get it out of someone by now :(

well thats all i have to say other than,

I love him :)
and i feel really ill :(
but the first one makes the other not matter :D

laterz xx

bin one of them days :(

i dunno why but today has just dragged on, it seems like its bin forever since this morning.

i managed to drag myself out of the house and go for a run, do some speed skipping and 100 sit ups and 100 push ups. It helped me clear my head :)

i dunno why but i can't stop writing stuff about scott, it's like the words just write themselves.

I'm stuck on you
i'm falling i love
with everything you do
i want it to be you and me
forever and always
it's the way it should be
we're together forever
i never want to let you go
this i want you to know
don't walk in front of me, i may not follow
don't walk behind me, i may not lead
just walk beside me, and be all that i need
without you my heart is left without a beat
without you in my arms my life is incomplete
i want to be the smile you put on your face
the girl you hold in your embrace
just don't ever leave or walk away
this may seem clicke
but i love you forever and always

- forever and always


i've spent all day writing, but i think thats one of the best :D

i dunno why but my head seems to of filled itself up with everything bad from the past, and everything seems to be bringing itself up for some reason and i realli wish it wouldnt


anyways thats it

laterz xx

Another one :)

Whenever you need me
i'll be wherever you want me to be
our lve means so much
built on unconditional trust
impossible to mistake
our special love built to last forever

-something special

I wanna hold your hand
be the one to guide you through
i don't want anyone else
to share all the smiles and tears
to hold me forever
because i know that we belong together

-together forever

we haven't known each other long
although that doesn't mean
we wouldn't know
each other through and through

take my hand
and show me your love firsthand
kiss my lips
no need to follow a script
your touch so gentle
every moment so sentimental

-knowing you



Well i didn't write anything yesterday so i thought i'd make up for it (happy now??)

Well yeah i didn't really do anything yesterday other than talk to scott and write more poems and lyrics

Everything is all sorted for my big sis's birthday :) and i still aint decided what i would like for my birthday :/.... 11 days


laterz xx

SCOTT :)

everytime i hear your voice
i know i made the right choice
writing my first name with your last making me your mrs
everday i long for one of your kisses
you light up my life when things get dark
our fingers intertwined strolling around the park
if they day turns into night i'll love you by candlelight
just promise me this, never to fight
you're my world
when our eyes met i knew my heart was sold
together we can be a teen love story with a happy ending
because when i'm with you my heart doesn't need mending
whoever said dreams don't come true
hasn't seen me with you

- meant to be

I wrote that :D i was realli proud of myself :P until i realized that some of it didnt fit so i had to re write it now is sounds ok when you say it. I got the idea of it from a song but yeah....

I can't believe he read it :/ i give in too easily to him.

Well so far i have had successfull day at practicing my guitar, keyboard and avoiding my revision :)

....At last she's okay :D

Lmao at my mother bless her :p i love her crippledness and the fact that we have all these wierd contraptions in out house, first the chair for when your in the kitchen, then the bathroom frame thing, next apparently its the knife thats like a saw, lol

well less than two weeks till my birthday :D and my mum and dad refuse to buy me a new electric guitar :( on the upside my sis's birthday meal is all sorted and we are gettin hellium balloons :D

well thats it,

Laterz xx

here's to teen love and not knowing why it hurts like hell

well, things go good then he screws up, why do i have to forgive him... i hope he doesnt go it again there isn't anyway i can go through it again.
i cant take someone else lying to me, least of all you.
scott you got me again, you've deffinately got me good

i managed to get my sister's 18th birthday present... at last :/

well i've managed to make some plans for once :P my social life is terrible its mainly made up of decisions on the spur of the moment, i never make plans, guess theres a first time for everything. firework/ bonfire thing wiv my mates.

some how i think somewhere in the last couple weeks i've got closer to my mum again. not the same as before but gettin there...

other than that i haven't got much else to say

laterz xx

NEWSFLASH

i wish scott could have his arms around me, even that would make things seem at least okay.

Well at least hannah's fireworks thing should be good, two days before my birthday... hopefully the whole house arrest idea will be forgotten by then...

Half term, was meant to be time for me and scott although seeing as my parents are against that idea and expect me to revise for these mock exams for college.. somehow i dont think that will happen.

i need him here with me, maybe hear his voice??

why do coursework days go really quickly but they are soo boring it's insane? i still have half of my physics coursework to do :/ oh well i'll get round to it sometime soon....

well half term here i come :D

laterz xx

Teenage love affair :)

I wish love could be easier especialy when your family doesn't help. Scott is at it again he just knows when i need someone to pick me up, i just wish he didn't have his spanish exchange student so we could talk properly.

Well there's so much to look forward to half term is coming up and big sis's surpriss party is well i don't think there is much planning going on to be honest well it's either that or it's gonna be a surprise for everyone else too :/

I'm glad I have claudia and molly to get me through today I really thought it was going to be over between me and crazy but cute but I guess we just got stronger :) he really does surprise me sometimes. At least I've got the girlz to keep my head up when there's days like to day :D

Maybe after seeing milly attempted at braiding hayley's hair i should get her to do mine, nah better off paying for it or i'll end up wiv some kind of notting mangles mess :/ that wouldn't be great seeing as my birthday is in less than 3 weeks :D but unlike most years i dont have a majorly long wishlist because i'm happy and i've got everything that i need right here.

well looks like it's another night of revision

laterz xx

how does he do it

Scott has done it again, everytime i think we're just drifting apart he says something and it makes me realize that everything he is is everything I want. :)

18 crikey, big sis deffinately IS big sis. But i'm still stuck with what i'm goin to get her :/ maybe it will have to be the toothbrush that i very much promised her :P. Well there's always the beloved vouchers chosen with every bit the care, love and affection. Well maybe the male escort would be the way to go, at least then she'd get a bit of fun out of it.

Why can't I get through this without wanting to text him, I guess he has just about taken over all but every part of me.

I can't believe how powerful spoken word poetry is, I always used to think of it like rap and people just saying a poem to music, but some people don't even say their pieces to music. My attempt at it was deffinately a big FAIL but i'm not going to give up, i've decided i want my poetry to be heard even if this is going to take some time at developing the skill i need to say all the passion of the words. whoever said teenagers can't put some good out never met me. HA! well i'll try my best i'm sure i can get my message across :/

Well i got back my epic fail of chemistry coursework, i don't get how brains does it i mean she's so clever how can she associate herself with me :/ another A* for her to add to the record and another C for me and a note for improvement (bit late for that now eh miss)

Laterz xx

I didn't think that this would happen....

How have I managed the last couple of days, I mean I know using £45 of credit in less than 2 weeks is quite unbelieveable but now that I haven't had any credit for the last couple of days I've actually realised how much I rely on my phone: from texting my boyfriend (and that is acceptable seeing as he lives nearly 3 hours away); making sure I know what i'm doin in my coursework; keeping upto date with all of the gossip (it's an absolute necessity for a girl; and just making sure I know what time I have to be at work. Thats not to mention saying happy birthday to people. Thats another thing I never realized how many peoples birthday's there are in October.

I don't get how my parents can say that he isn't what I want, he's everything that I want, crazy but cute he maybe but he is still everything and more than what I've ever wanted. For one I know he cares about me, deffinately way more than anyother guy has cared about me, thats got to be a good thing for starters. Another thing I don't think I can say I have actually cared about anyone else this much before.

Anyways there's a big pile of coursewrok with my name on it,

Laterz xx