decisionsss

Over the last couple of days i've seen two sides to louis, the really cute, loving, kind, caring, side that i love and the complete and utter dick that doesn't care about anything other than himself. If i'm totally honest i care about him alot, and i can't believe some of the things he's said especially the part where he wants to be with me for the rest of his life, but he doesn't think he will be able to make it upto me because of what he's done. Hopefully we will be able to sort it out, we getting there and he's getting back to how i know him... which it really good. I know that he is a decent guy, more people should give him a chance. I absolutely hate the fact that he lied to me as he said he never would, and some of the things that were said by both of us, shouldn't of bin said, but well thats the problem with arguements. I want us to get back together, he means a hell of a lot to me. I miss him and our weekends together. Maybe if we have a second chance then we'll do it properly. All i want at the moment is to be with him.

It's good to know someone cares about me, but it's a shame that nothing will happen with us, especially with the distance, and my feelings for louis, i just care about him in a totally different way. Scott makes an amazing friend and i know he has feelings for me, and it's nice to know, but all i see him as is a friend right now, maybe that will change agen one day maybe it wont, but right now my priotity is sorting things out with louis, and seeing if we can get back together, and into a good place. As much as my parents hate that idea, but it's my choice not theirs.

Spoke to laura today for the first time in ages, it's good to hear off of people you haven't spoken to in a long time.

Had a bit of a bad first day back, coz of feeling tired after being ill. But Brenna and Jodie made last lesson amazing. Supply teachers for english should happen more often...especially that old guy he was crazzyyy

-taking the register the teacher calls our JODIE she answers "yes please", he replies "you don't know what i'm offering yet" cringe

and all of brenna's comments everytime he said something were just amazing gotta love that girl.

There was a slight issue with prom dresses today i have no idea why people are gettin them so early but there agen i aint fuss is bout to be honest, i aint bothered about goin to prom. but yeah basically molly bought the dress lizzie thought she'd reserved but hadn't so now molly has it and lizzie has to find another one. GUTTED.

Anyways

laterz xx

todai was quite good considering....

lol birthday beats for hayley :P

property of scott written all over my arms >> thanks mich :/

lol ecstasy :/ >> i did not apprecite the comments from molly lol

the announcement was not appreciated either :/ lol

cant wait for christmas... :D

i love you babyy your amazing

laterz x
lovee youu xxxx

Teenage love affair :)

I wish love could be easier especialy when your family doesn't help. Scott is at it again he just knows when i need someone to pick me up, i just wish he didn't have his spanish exchange student so we could talk properly.

Well there's so much to look forward to half term is coming up and big sis's surpriss party is well i don't think there is much planning going on to be honest well it's either that or it's gonna be a surprise for everyone else too :/

I'm glad I have claudia and molly to get me through today I really thought it was going to be over between me and crazy but cute but I guess we just got stronger :) he really does surprise me sometimes. At least I've got the girlz to keep my head up when there's days like to day :D

Maybe after seeing milly attempted at braiding hayley's hair i should get her to do mine, nah better off paying for it or i'll end up wiv some kind of notting mangles mess :/ that wouldn't be great seeing as my birthday is in less than 3 weeks :D but unlike most years i dont have a majorly long wishlist because i'm happy and i've got everything that i need right here.

well looks like it's another night of revision

laterz xx