Quick Catch Up

I’ve been kind of neglecting my blog the past few days, mainly because everything has been really hectic.


Well it looks like the time I’m already going to be spending with Scott in Easter half term is going to be extended. This is because I’m hopefully going to be going back with Scott when he leaves mine and then staying with him for a bit so I can watch him play his football match. It should happen seeing as both of our parents have agreed to it. So it looks like Easter really is going to be amazing! Especially as we’ll be celebrating being together for a year, and we’ve got our picnic as long as the weather is good, a shopping trip, Hannah and Milly’s party plus anything else we decide to do.

College is going really well at the moment too which is a bonus.

Everything is all good again

Today I’ve spent all day in the car because day wanted to pick up some new tyres for his landrover.

That’s all I’ve got to say really...

Laterz xo

Love you xxxxx

I’m a scorpio…

Basically I follow a scorpio horoscope thing on twitter and everything they wrote in this 90 facts about me are all basically true so I thought I would post them:

1. I'm a scorpio (I know.. *gasp*)
2. Most people think I'm mean but if you get to know me, I'm actually a cool person
3. I am a difficult person to get to know, Scorpios are secretive
4. You’ll never really know what I’m thinking. I could be feeling you but you wouldn’t know it
5. If I go out of my way to talk to you, I either care about you or you have something I want
6. Flirting does nothing for me. Confidence = turn on, as well as simple little things
7. I think about sex more than I care to admit
8. It may seem like I’m picky when it comes to love, but I’m really just weeding out all the dummies
9. I don’t trust anybody completely
10. I am irritable
11. I know how to push your buttons
12. I usually get what I want, I’m persuasive like that
13. I don’t let people in because they won’t understand the depths of my thoughts
14. So i keep it to myself and smile
15. I’m a people watcher
16. I like to be left alone, I need my space
17. You don’t want to see me mad
18. I’m independent but would love to love somebody
19. If I let you in you will see that I’m one of the most downest people you’d ever meet
20. I’m a serious person but I'm funny too, I’d do anything to make you laugh even at my own expense
21. I feel 1000000000 times stronger than most. But I know how to keep it together
22. I'm an affectionate person. Not in public though. Unless I'm in *that* kinda mood
23. I keep my friends close, and my enemies closer
24. I'm nocturnal
25. You probably don't know about it, but I have HUGE goals in life
26. You're all bark, no bite. I'M ALL BITE (Don't talk about it BE about it)
27. I'm a great multitasker..at work, home, in the bedroom (keep that in mind *wink wink*)
28. 1 of the best ways to lose me quick is to try to make me say or do something I don't want to do
29. When we're talking, give me your undivided attention or leave me alone
30. I will give you all of me, and I want the same in return
31. 98% of you wouldn't be able to handle me
32. Keep me happy and interested, and you'll have a loyal partner for life
33. I won't stick around if I'm not interested. I can't be fake, sorry
34. Hurt my family, I'll hurt you.. one way or another
35. WARNING: I can be addicting. When I'm gone you will experience withdrawal symptoms
36. I need someone who will support my ambition, not get in the way
37. I could be your best friend or worst enemy.
38. When I love, I love HARD. That's why I tend to love few. You have to be worth it
39. I could be difficult at times. I want to see you prove that you love me
40. I'm worth it. I promise <3
41. I don't like being bothered with questions. If you bother me, I'll ignore you
42. Don't play with me. I invented this game
43. I like to get my way, but I like it even more when there is a challenge involved
44. never show what I feel, NEVER
45. (We want) Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love
46. when we are quiet, we aren't being arrogant we are watching and thinking everything
47. I can sometimes forgive, but I NEVER forget
48. C0MPETETI0N ? BRING IT 0N
49. I love people, but I hate people
50. darkness is a state of mind we know too well.
51. Don't underestimate what I might know. I know everything about you!
52. we have an extreme passion within us. One that you'll probably mistake for what you think is love
53. I don't trust easy....so have patience...I will question you, deal with it...
54. I Never Let Some1 Play With My Feelings What So Ever!
55. The only thing that can stop ME from anything I put my mind to, is ME!
56. I know I'm a bitch...thanks for the compliment. :-) better a bitch than a doormat!
57. likes to read people but never let anyone read their minds
58. ready to have sex anywhere any time just give me a wink
59. Scorpios don't Trust easily. It has 2B Earned
60. we're so soft deep inside. our outside shell betrays big time!
61. Treat me good and I will treat you better, treat me bad and I will treat you worst
62. How about...I say what I want to say and I do what I want to do
63. I don't like being in emotional limbo. It's all or nothing.
64. If we fall down seven times, we'll get up eight times
65. I am not going to stick around if I see you flirting with someone else
66. I can be completely into you but if you do something I really dislike, we're done, YOU killed it
67. Once I see that other side of you, it will never be the same, I won't forget
68. It takes a lot to hurt me but fck... when I do hurt, it hurts SO bad
69. I'm super quiet when I'm upset. Nothing you do or say will get me to smile or react. Leave me alone
70. When I love someone I make them the center of my world, I put them above all others
71. I don't want to share you
72. Don't tell me what to do. If you do, I'll most likely do the opposite
73. I'm stubborn. Once I've made up my mind there's really nothing you could do. I'll applaud your effort though
74. I'm not impressed when you brag about superficial things. Don't throw yourself at me, it's tacky
75. I don't PLAY hard to get, I AM hard to get!
76. If I were to tell you what it takes to get me, I'd have to kill you
77. I like that subtle sex appeal and confidence. Nothing over the top. Don't try too hard
78. Lie to me and you'll get the blank stare
79. Sometimes I'll pretend I don't know something, to see if you'll admit to it or bring it up
80. I'm not afraid of you, you, or YOU! Try me, I DARE you
81. If I don't know you or don't like you, you don't exist. Don't flatter yourself thinking that you cross my mind
82. I could cut you out of my life in a split second if you cross me
83. Yea I'm a sexual person, it doesn't mean that I'll just sleep with ANYBODY though
84. It takes more than good looks to get me, I'm far from shallow
85. If I'm good to you, don't take my kindness for weakness. That can change QUICKLY
86. My mood can change in the blink of an eye. Be ready
87. It's hard to capture my interest, and hard to keep my interest.. but once you have it, you have it all
88. Seducing... it comes natural to me
89. I know I'm driving you crazy when I *casually* touch you in public. I act innocent though
90. I'm more in control than you think ;) I know exactly what I'm doing

Maybe it's time to cut lose

There have been good parts and bad parts to today.


College was really good it actually took my mind off of everything, which was great while it lasted.

Tristan at lunch was so funny, basically at our college like every other college round here there is a big thing about sexual health and safe sex and all of that and at the moment there are loads of give a ways and prizes if you do a Chlamydia test. Tristan really wants to win the Ipod that is one of the prizes so he has been trying to convince everyone to do a test so that he can enter for the Ipod on their behalf. His whole approach to it was really funny.
I have finally been able to sort out my bank account with Natwest, another stage closer to getting my job.
I honestly don’t think my parents are going to stay together much longer. I feel in away as if my whole life and everything I know is slowly falling apart. If they do split up I’m not going to choose between them, I’ll find somewhere where I don’t have to be a part of this anymore because what I have at home right now doesn’t feel like a family anymore. But what can I do? Nothing I just have to sit and watch as my whole family, everything I know falls apart.
Me and Scott aren’t feeling right at the moment either. He’s broken a promise to me and apparently people are going to try and break us up. Just what I need on top of everything else.

I really feel like cutting myself loose of everything and everyone and just working on getting through college and university and then worrying about everything afterwards.

Laterz xo

Love you xxx