sorry bout not posting yesterday my computer crashed :@
this will be a quick post coz i'm really tired :/
spent the whole of today thinking about us, and still not being 100% sure. louis decides to come back at the wrong times and tell me his feelings. They are so different...
I'm pleased for scott bout his football, shame bout getting injured.
GAAAHH why was the male species put on this earth???
I soooo totally want to learn that!
right bed...NOW....plus its the easter holidays!! AND AND i deffiantely got my first choice for camp.
I know this blog has been a long time coming, but here it is...
I can now definitely say that I do truly want to be with Scott however hard that is. He may not be perfect, but to me he couldn’t be more perfect! I know that we won’t see each other much until after my exams, because of all of my coursework and exams that are coming up. But I do know something, we are going to be alright and I’m going to be there for him as much as I can. He’s going to Spain tomorrow :( which means I won’t be able to talk to him for a week... I'm finally seeing us moving on out of this mess, together and not having to split up because of it, i'm not saying that i'm a 100% sure of it but its deffinately starting to seem a lot better.
I actually can’t believe how quickly the exams are coming; I seriously need to start revision and putting in some over time with my textiles sketchbook!
I managed to get my mum and dad to definitely agree to let me go to camp again this year; I’m well excited and looking forward to it! Now all I’ve got to do is chose which one I want to go too.
Then i got a suprise today, now i thought this was waaay cool....i might be able to go to camp again this year!! So i was looking at the DI4R sire today, not decided which one yet, but it'll probs be the first week of the actually summer holidays. The conditions on bein able to go are make a site for my parents business (done) and to help out with the business for free (well till the amount is payed off) but i'm well happy bout that.
I'm goin to go do some graphics coursework and hopefully get my product done (fingers crossed)
I got a really cute text from scott this morning and after the last couple of days it was really good to know how he feels. I have bin a bit shit to him and given him a hard time but with the distance there's no way our relationship would work if i can't trust him, or he can't trust me. But everything is sorted now and we're back to how we should be. Won't be able to talk to him for a week :( as of friday coz he's goin to spain (alright for some)
anyways better get started on my graphics coursework,
well i really hope scott can come in the christmas holidays, i really want to see himjust hope that nothing comes up :)
had quite a good day today but need something to look forward to coz all i have is these exams that they but back by like 3 weeks :(
me and half my mates have started listening to christmas songs already :)
i know what i'm getting him for christmas and i know he'll really like it, well he better do coz theres alot of effort involved in finding the right place to get it :)
can't wait to see him, it'll be sooooo good if i can :)
anyways waterloo road on tv tonite then maybe a little chat with him :) and possibly some coursework :/ (gaaah i hate school but i suppose only 6/7 months left then i can do what i want)
thinking bout not going to college and just getting a job :) that way i can do what i want when i want, and i'm actually sick of schools and teachers, wish i could leave now but if i did that then i would have no chanc eof getting a job and my parents would actually kill me :( all i've got to do is find a job somewhere, and then i'm sorted :)
really disliked biology today :( eyeballs are officially the most disgusting thing everrr.
i really wish sometimes i could just see him, and just spend some time together...
maybe i won't fail textiles anymore :) i've actually got some work done :P
i love it when he say i love you especially as we can't be together when we want to, but hearing his voice makes up for it. i love finding things out about him and can't wait to hear more embarrassing stories about him, good job there arent many bout me :) otherwise i would be worried bout what he could find out :P.
i hate talkin bout myself it makes me feel bigheaded, and there aint actually much to talk about to be totally honest, if people want to know stuff bout me then generally have to ask :)
can't wait to go christmas shopping especially now the ice rink is up on parkers peace :) the lights are gonna be well good this year, shame i cant go see them bein switche don this year was good the other year :( oh well :P. maybe i'll go skatin at some point agen last year was good especially wiv all the lights round it and dinner afterwards was a laugh, my cousin knows how to cheer me up :) shame i can't skate properly, hopefully we'll be able to go to ice planet in peterborough wiv the skool agen coz last year it was good i actually learnt how to skate properly but can't remember half of it :(
i really love christmas, and it's only the second week of november :/ that means bout 6 weeks till christmas day :) 45 days apparently :) not actually that long.
just got to decide what i'm getting my brother and sister for christmas now :/ i know what i'm getting everyone else :)
new year should be really good got my auntie and uncle and my cousin coming over on new years eve and maybe some other family too :) the summer holiday wiv them was great especially when we were all playin badminton that was pretty funny specially when me and my dad where beatin everyone :) it was realli hot too, still got a slight bit of my tan although it's goin pretty quick :(.
i really want to go to DI4R agen next year but not sure which one :/ probs not where i went this year, coz i want to try soemthin new :)
got rehearsals agen on friday for the christmas concert still cant figure out why i'm singing in it :/ some of the songs are good and it should be a laugh mr B is funny anyways so rehearsals are good specialy if bren bren turns up agen me and her had a laugh dancin last week :)
well thats basically all i have to say :) thought i'd fill in some of the gaps, seeing as he was at kick boxing and i didnt have much else to doooo :)
had quite a good day today beat aaron at singstar agen :)
went wiv my family to buy my birthday presents for tomorrow, love my parents present :) well one part of it was amazing coz of what i've now got out of it :). bin practicing my guitar but i seem to be getting worse :/
last nite was really good looking forward to new year wiv the family :) it was funny when uncle ivan and dad were playin on the playstation, god their so competitive :)
and mum and auntie angela (my second mum) wiv their 20 million questions :)
