So, it’s 2010, a new year, a new decade and time for a fresh start. No more being walked over by people, being stabbed in the back or any of that stuff. Last year was full of ups and downs, fall outs and break ups but now I’m ready to put that all behind me and start a fresh. Now it’s going to be about:
1. Friends – no more being walked over by so called friends. I’m going to concentrate on the ones I have, the people I can trust. If someone feels the need to talk about me behind my back then they can do it because to be honest I can’t be bothered with people like that anymore I’m passed caring about those people. I’ve got friends that I can trust, stand by me, make me laugh, I can have a good time with and know will always be there (yes we’ve all fallen out at times but I hope there won’t be any more of those times). If I lose friends then they can’t of bin that great a friend in the first place, can they?
2. Boyfriends <3 – finally had enough of being with jerks, hopefully I have found the right guy (which I’m sure I have), finally I’m happy and we’re doing good together, everything I want in a guy is in him, kind, caring, funny, loving, respects me. Four days till we’ll of bin together for a month, it’s gone so fast but I’ve enjoyed every minute of it, ILYOUU!
3. Guitar – I’m actually sticking to my hour a day of practice time, which is quite surprising, but I am actually improving, slowly. Maybe one day I’ll be able to just play anything I want but for now it’s a case of hand exercises, chords and tones of practice!
4. School – I’ve changed my mind plenty of times about wanting to go onto college, but now I’m pretty sure that it’s what I want to do, as eventually I want to get into events management. Now I need to work hard and get the grades so I can actually do that. Hopefully I’ll be able to study business studies, leisure studies, media studies and ICT.
Obviously my family should be in that list but since October 2008 we’ve been spending a lot of time together so my life is all about my family anyways and everything else normally has to fit around them, so now I think it’s time to maybe spend more time with Louis and all of my friends.
I’m going to start having a new outlook on life, if it hasn’t got anything to do with me then I’m not going to worry about it, I’m not going to think things over as much as I used to, I’m just going to let things happen and see where it leads me to.
My music taste has changed quite a bit over the last year I don’t just listen to mainstream music anymore; I listen to everything, that’s probably got quite a bit to do with my YouTube addiction.
I’ve developed this thing for writing poetry of the last 5 – 6 months, hopefully I’m getting better and the subjects I write about are varying a lot more. I’ve also found out that I can draw portraits from photos, I’ve never been able to do it until recently, but it was pretty cool to find out I can do it.
Something that has really changed the way I am with people and how I see things is DI4R, it was probably the most amazing week of my life, I’ll never forget the people (well there is one person I can try and forget). The memories are pretty insane too, team DIVERSITY all the way, hopefully we can all meet up again this summer. From DI4R I’ve got three of the best mates I’ve ever met Laura, Zahra and Jaz.
But those to aren’t the only people I couldn’t live without; Molly.Hannah.Clauds.Milly.Hayley.Michelle.Bethany.Brenna.Mica
Without those guys the last few years would have been so hard and I probably wouldn’t have got through it. That’s why I try to be there for them as much as they have for me because they always do so much for me:
Molly. I know that with her I can talk to her about everything and work out what to do about it all. But not only that we have so many good times together and I know that I can always rely on her. Cow and the frog.
Hannah. I can trust her with anything and she’s been there for me through some pretty tough stuff, and her iphone is one immense little gadget.
Clauds. With our little theories, serious chats and just plain weird moments I don’t know what I’d do without her. She’s one of the few people who have really stood by me through everything.
Milly. Got to love my little ginger, her music and our amazing dancing. She always manages to make me smile no matter what mood I’m in.
Hayley. We always talk and mess around there isn’t anything I wouldn’t be able to talk to her about because we always help each other out with our problems.
Michelle. TUNEEE, we have some pretty amazing maths lessons together, she’s one of those people you can always rely on and will always be there to support you.
Bethany. We’ve been through a lot, fallen out, made up, but we are so close, I can trust her with everything, she always knows when something’s up and was one of the only people who know the truth about that October. She always helps me sort stuff out.
Brenna. What would I do without bren bren, one of the only people that doesn’t really judge anyone and you can trust 100% , can put a smile on your face when you don’t even think it’s possible.
Mica. I know I can rely on her and will always be there with a hug when you’re feeling down and will just sit there if you don’t want to talk.
The main thing about our little group of friends is that they’re always supportive and I know that they’ll always be there for me in some way or another, yeah we’ve fallen out but we always sort it out and move on (but there again what friends don’t fall out).
But there’s still one very special friend that I haven’t mentioned and that’s Kersha. I’ve known her for 13 years and we’ve always been close, I trust her with my life. There’s nothing we wouldn’t tell each other because we always do. I don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t have her. Through everything I know I’ve always got her and she’ll always have me, that’s the way it’s always been and the way it’s going to stay.
Louis <3. He’s been there for me the last couple of months, but only recently (18th December 2009) have we become more. I’m glad we have because I couldn’t ask for anyone else to be by my side. He means so much to me. When I first met him all the way back in primary school I’d never of guessed we’d end up the way we have, but I’m really glad we have because he is the most amazing person anyone could ever meet, kind.caring.funny.loving what more could anyone want? I hope that we last.
I get distracted really easily but that’s just the way I roll, here is the last few things;
Friends.family.louis.music.guitar.eastenders.poetry.art.markers.green.airwalk.basketball
That’s it from me today,
Laterz xoxox
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