sorryyy....

I know i promised to post the other video and that but i haven't had time to post, so you know... anyways here's some more things that i've done:




Basically the idea of it was to create a video about knife crime from the victims point of view, i dunno if it works or not.... :/

Well i didn't have a valentine for valentine's day but i know alot of people did so i made this to a good love song, well i think it's good anyways :), here it is:



Now, I have made another video, and it took todays to make because i kept changing my mind about it, editing it adding different photos, etc but this is how it ended up:




You can see it isn't like my other videos, lately i've realised how much i really do need my close friends so i thought i could maybe make a small thanks, whether it doe sit or not i dont know, but i hope they like it :)

It's quite funny how some people turn out really, i saw someone today that i hadn't seen in ages and they didnt even say hello back :( oh well you can't win everyone can you :)

Today i had a really good day with my sister, we never really spend anytime together so it was good to go into town with her, (and she paid for everything :D lol) the best bits where:

buying millies cookies, 6 of them to be exact (!) Tash stands there ready to pay and i say really loudly, your hungry today aren't you, the woman didn't look to amused (lol)

buying some books in waterstones, again 6 of them (got a thing about that number), Tash stands there ready to pay (again!) and i say really loudly again, you like reading don't you Tash, then the woman then says sarcastically you want a bag for those (lol)

then we went back into waterstones coz i wanted to get another book for blender (long story) and Tash looks through the other books and pulls a katie price book out of the box and says i wonder how much thats bin reduced to (lol)

Well tuesday tomorrow goin shopping with the parents, well at least it mean there'll be some chocolate and other random junk food for the rest of half term :) then i plan to sit down and actually make a good animation, well at least start one, i need to think of an idea...

I've start to get really interested in video editing, animations and random graphics again recently and i seem to of got better, well i leave you to be the judge of that :)

anyways, i haven't got much else to say really, so...

laterz xx

well...

so i got a new program yesterday, sony vegas pro 9.0 and i wanted to try it out and see what it could do. I've got a youtube account so i thought why not make something that everyone could see, so this is what came of it:



I thought that bullying is a big topic, i'm a cybermentor, so why not? I made another one but haven't had time to upload it yet, so i'll post it tomorrow!

I've decided i'm going to post more videos on youtube now that i've got a better program.

Things are finally back on track, yes i'm single and yes i'm actually happy about it, i have some really close mates now and who would have thought that one of those would actually include one of the people that had once hurt me the most! I guess seeing another side of him and going back to being mates is easy for us because we forgave each other, and well me and louis haven't quite got to that stage yet, but we're working on it. Me and scott (or scoot :P lol) seem to have made a fresh start and being this close to him again is actually quite good, especially as i thought that it would never happen! Thats one of the best things about friendship, you can go through so much together, good and bad but you still have each other to rely on. Yeah, i'm not going to say people should fall out but in some cases it makes you stronger.

Just like another very special friend of mine! We've gone through a major fall out last year but now i know that i can rely on her, and that what ever i need whether its cheering up or just some advice she'll be there. Thats the best thing about friendship people are there for you in different ways, me and scott can't be there for each other in person but we can be with advice and just talking and having a laugh. Where as me and bethany can be there for each other whatever we need whenever we need it. I'm not saying those two are my only closest friends but those two right now are the ones who i have gone through the most ups and downs with and probably know the most about me, because i can be open with them, as well as be myself around them, which is probably the best thing!

Friendhsip is deffiantely one of the things i'm most thankful for.

Aanyways,

Laterz xx

"But if you really love me, like you say you love me then baby take me as I am"

It's hard when you think you love someone but you don't know if it will work or is best for both of you.

3 months he waited
1 month together
3 weeks apart

Back together or not?? If it was my choice then yeah, but people make it harder and you have to decide whats best for everyone. Nothing will go back to how it was before, an i know i dont want to lose him out of my life. Yes, i still care about him, but i dont know if he actually still cares about me, it's easy to say it but it's hard to prove it. Then theres everything that gets said, people talking, messing your head around.

So...

YES i care about him
YES given the chance i probably would give it another chance

But i don't know if it's right or not, alhtough i only can to be with him if he wants me for who i am and not everything else thats been said.

I know people won't want to see us back together, but i guess it's not their choice, it's ours, if there's a way to fix it then i want to know what it is, but i don't know if there is a way.

Euugghhh i hate life, maybe it's too late.

laterz xx